I still try hiding my disability, it is not pretty enough or radical enough to be in the light
People watch my hands tremble as I struggle to complete mundane tasks
Feeling my frustration that my hands can’t move fast enough but theirs can
I don’t want it to be everything that I am, but as soon as someone knows, it’s all I am associated with
Questions cause embarrassment because now I know people notice
“Do you have a limp?”
“Why does your foot sometimes drag?”
“Are you ok, your hands are shaking?”
It has me in its hold and it will never go away
I was outlasted for it before the diagnosis and medication hiding the episodes
Do you understand yet?
How can I be proud of it when I was thrown away for not being perfect enough for my peers?