Let Him Kill Me

When I tell people he was abusive

They tell me I’m lucky he didn’t kill me

I wish he had

Because his words left bruises

They acted like daggers

Every time I tried to escape his grip I got

“I can’t live without you.”

“I’ll kill myself if you leave. You’re all I have.”

Every time people talk about him around me

I feel as if there’s an elephant in the room

That I have to tiptoe around as if not to shatter their view of him

Because it was never about me

But about him and his reputation

I can’t breathe because he placed stones on my chest in an attempt to muffle my screams to get out

People tell me I’m lucky he didn’t kill me

I wish he did

The pain of people telling me how much they love him and how amazing he is

Feels like I’m already halfway there

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